MBD,

Today was boring but yesterday was fun! I went to the mall with erika, jenny, and maggie. I only bought pajama pants from Victorias Secret and perfume from PacSun (: Sadly i realized yesterday that i need to lose aton of weight if i wanna look good for graduation, it was like a "Reality Check" this is how it happened...i was trying on some dresses at Deb's (a big dress store!) and I saw a wicked cute one that was pink and sparkly- it fit but wasnt flattering...it made me really sad and i was upset for the rest of the time at the mall. But after we went to icecream and erika and maggie and me were laughing wicked hard (I almost peed my pants!) haha.

I am starting my weight loss thing again, i stopped for like two weeks and thats not good =/. My friends always say "Your not fat!" "your sooo thin!!!"...But i know that when i dress in something not flattering i can see it on thier faces, and it kinda hurts. No one really knows how I feel, like you may call yourself fat and think your fat but your actually thin, I am fat and it sucks because when my friends say "Omg im so fat!" even though there thin, it makes me feel sucky because if theyre skinny and call themselves fat, then i must be a BEAST!!! :(

gotta go, cya
x0x0Carissa