MBD,

Today was boring but yesterday was fun! I went to the mall with erika, jenny, and maggie. I only bought pajama pants from Victorias Secret and perfume from PacSun (: Sadly i realized yesterday that i need to lose aton of weight if i wanna look good for graduation, it was like a "Reality Check" this is how it happened...i was trying on some dresses at Deb's (a big dress store!) and I saw a wicked cute one that was pink and sparkly- it fit but wasnt flattering...it made me really sad and i was upset for the rest of the time at the mall. But after we went to icecream and erika and maggie and me were laughing wicked hard (I almost peed my pants!) haha.

I am starting my weight loss thing again, i stopped for like two weeks and thats not good =/. My friends always say "Your not fat!" "your sooo thin!!!"...But i know that when i dress in something not flattering i can see it on thier faces, and it kinda hurts. No one really knows how I feel, like you may call yourself fat and think your fat but your actually thin, I am fat and it sucks because when my friends say "Omg im so fat!" even though there thin, it makes me feel sucky because if theyre skinny and call themselves fat, then i must be a BEAST!!! :(

gotta go, cya
x0x0Carissa

Dear MBD,

today is march 21, 2009. Its saturday and my parents are going to a comedy show tonight, whatever that is? yesterday was wicked complicated because chjem + gabby was trying to make fun plans for the half day, but "SOME PEOPLE" were being whatever >=/ ! not saying who, and no jenny its not you im talking about haha. anyways... yesterday i ended up going over erikas house with jenny and hanna then hanna went over my house and someoneee got wicked upset, because erika didnt invite her? why would she be mad at ME for that. I know its so gay...even though erika DID invite her and she canceled all of our plans & she went to the mall and stuff to get stuff for her project so i thought it would take 263534 hours so i thought she was blowing me off!? she wouldnt have been able to hangout until 3:30 so then i decided to make my own plans earlier on because i didnt wanna revolve my day around her. ANYWAYS, today I am hanging out with alexandra i think or tomorrow? i dont know ahah. SHOUT OUT: to jenny good luck on your meet today in gymnastics! love you x 2!! well gotta go and i hope that someeoneee isnt mad at me still for noo good reason:) bye.

<3>
carissa

P.S. saying of the week: BITE ME BITCH!
^ haha idk why but this makes me laugh! <333>

hey,

I have decided to make my blog like a "DIARY", my personal yet interesting things that go on in my day- from drama to weight loss news- you will be in on everything in my own "bloggers diary" ill call my diary ....... "MBD" = "My Blog Diary" !!

okay so the newest MBD will be posted ASAP!

thanks bye<3
Carissa (: (: (:

hey jenben joined yay!
gtg to the gym bye :)

hey bloggers,

How to look good, at school:

1. WEAR MAKEUP
2. BRUSH TEETH
3. BRUSH HAIR
4. TRY HARD TO FIT IN
5. WEAR THE "in" CLOTHING
6. IF YOUR NOT FIT...OVER YOUR DOCTORS RECCOMENDED WEIGHT FOR YOU, DIET AND EXCERCISE!
7. BE YOUR SELF 50% OF THE TIME AND BE 50% LIKE THE POPULARS...

thanks bye <333333
carissa





CHJEM= <3333